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So I've been thinking about trans headcanons a bit now.
Specifically transmasc Aubrey, transfem Kel & recently transfem Sunny (all also enby in my mind).
So for me at least; transmasc/neutral Aubrey is very much me projecting. I am an AFAB enby mess who wishes to transition to a more masculine body while not wishing to abandon my feminine fashion sense (in other words: I wish to be trans roseboy). So I headcanon Aubrey as somebody who wishes to be perceived as more masculine without letting go of his feminine looks. Specifically with they/he/she/hir pronouns, mainly keeping she because of mixed feelings on gender (which technically is also projection but I didn't add it to my sticky post cause nobody uses anything other than ¨she¨ for me in real life & I'm a little sick of it).
I have no clue where transfem Kel came from. Originally I just heacanoned her as simply agender who just kinda used whatever pronouns she knew. But then I thought of her struggling with fears on how she'd be perceived by her family and I just kinda kept it (maybe it's just me projecting again. cause I came out to my family & while they haven't been outright transphobic, they made no attempt to change how they refer to me & my mom recently has shown to basically be transphobic when it really matters. I don't think I want to keep this for Kel in my AU, but I do want the fears there cause that's what I'm feeling now).
As for Sunny I just think it's neat. But also I can't help but think Sunny in the good ending would feel conflicted on taking in a more feminine presentation, either to not wanting to accidentally take Mari's place or not being sure what that would actually mean for them.
I am not trying to imply that transness is just suffering/angst. Or that any & all headcanons need to be deep & meaningful. But personally I have trouble connecting & getting invested in trans headcanons unless I can see a piece of myself in there or the character would make a complicated journey through gender to find themselves.
TL;DR trans headcanons cool & people should headcanon what they enjoy
Specifically transmasc Aubrey, transfem Kel & recently transfem Sunny (all also enby in my mind).
So for me at least; transmasc/neutral Aubrey is very much me projecting. I am an AFAB enby mess who wishes to transition to a more masculine body while not wishing to abandon my feminine fashion sense (in other words: I wish to be trans roseboy). So I headcanon Aubrey as somebody who wishes to be perceived as more masculine without letting go of his feminine looks. Specifically with they/he/she/hir pronouns, mainly keeping she because of mixed feelings on gender (which technically is also projection but I didn't add it to my sticky post cause nobody uses anything other than ¨she¨ for me in real life & I'm a little sick of it).
I have no clue where transfem Kel came from. Originally I just heacanoned her as simply agender who just kinda used whatever pronouns she knew. But then I thought of her struggling with fears on how she'd be perceived by her family and I just kinda kept it (maybe it's just me projecting again. cause I came out to my family & while they haven't been outright transphobic, they made no attempt to change how they refer to me & my mom recently has shown to basically be transphobic when it really matters. I don't think I want to keep this for Kel in my AU, but I do want the fears there cause that's what I'm feeling now).
As for Sunny I just think it's neat. But also I can't help but think Sunny in the good ending would feel conflicted on taking in a more feminine presentation, either to not wanting to accidentally take Mari's place or not being sure what that would actually mean for them.
I am not trying to imply that transness is just suffering/angst. Or that any & all headcanons need to be deep & meaningful. But personally I have trouble connecting & getting invested in trans headcanons unless I can see a piece of myself in there or the character would make a complicated journey through gender to find themselves.
TL;DR trans headcanons cool & people should headcanon what they enjoy
