The Most Dangerous Thing Is To Love

So I only found out about 8tracks long after it stopped allowing users to upload songs to your library or use the larger library (at least in the EU). And I've heard that 8tracks is under new management & is/has relaunched the site, but I still can't upload songs or use the library. So all I can do is play the currently avialable mixes.

Which; it is better then the site being down.

Still, I wished that 8tracks could work for me. Shure, I would still use spotify to listen to/find new songs, but Spotify very much promotes mixes/playlists that have a shit-ton of songs on them. Which, ends up promoting having long playlists over mixes that make sense for characters or similar.

I'm not saying there isn't a place for sites like Spotify (though I'm annoyed that they made reading lyrics a premium feature). But I wish 8tracks worked for me.

I haven't been posting for basically the entire month, last post here, but in short my brain has been kind of a mess again. I won't go into details of that, or the legal stuff that held me up when my brain was less of a mess. Since even if I knew 100% what is going on, it feels a bit too private to share here.

So here's some fannish stuff instead:

• Starting to get into Pokémon again, though it isn't my main priority right now.


• Started watching the Monster High Gen 3 episodes that's on YouTube. Mainly so I can figuer out why everyone is shipping Frankie with Cleo now (also I enjoyed the first live-action movie).


• Got into Frankenstein and Jekyll & Hyde again (so yea Glass Scientists by proxy). Been working on an adaptation thingy for Frankenstein.


• Watched the first episode of Hazbin Hotel. It's fun so far, but may not finish it or Helluva Boss till much later.


• Watched the first episode of Dirk Gently (BBC 2016), similar story to the above.

So I thought of making a FNAF AU with sapient animotronics since the springlocks cause I missed doing that in the early period of the FNAF fandom. Mainly cause I think it'd be fun to deal with sapient robots being created for children's entertainment + the consequences of that when sapience isn't accounted for. Originally I was going to do it with gijinka versions of the bots cause again, I'm doing it to have fun.

But then I thought about writing them with their canon-appearances.

I feel like in writing, it would make more sense for the bots to be anthro-animal-animatromics instead of gijinkas. Since that would help with the dehumanization of them by outsiders and why others would be more willing to disbelieve they have sapience. Plus with the gijinkas, I'd have to have Henry & William have visions from God to make sure they could make that accurate-ish humaniods in the 70s.

But, I prefer drawing gijinkas. And if this ends up being a thing I draw for either for a comic or some other visual-based fan-media, I'd would want them to be gijinkas. Plus with gijinkas having the "visions from God" leads to possible magic in the story, which could be fun in itself (+ it could lead to robot-religon, which is something I am thinking about since DBH dissapointed me).

I could, in theory, just make 2 AUs where one is specifically for writing & one specifically for drawing/gijinkas. But then I'd have to create not one, but two timelines/plots/lore that's both reconizonable as roughly the plot of FNAF yet is unique from them.

So yea, I'm in a creative pickle :/

edit: I thought of making the gijinka version into a RPG-esc story, with the magic playing a larger part of it. But that would still need fleshing out.

Hi! So I found out about this challenge & wanted to do it as well. As a theme I'll choose "Indulgence" aka: things that I like too much to be normal and/or AUs where things will be changed so that I like them more or because I don't like canon.

Now to the actual post:
THE PLAN FOR THE FIRST FEW WEEKS *rubs hands like supervillian*

I'm currently fixated on Pokémon, gameverse specifically, so I can basically make the protags whomever I wish (except Red, cause technically has some canon stuff about him & Leaf, because I like what I saw already from her in Let's go Eevee!). So at least the first few Fannish 50 posts will be me rambling about how I view the protags + any changes I'm considering for my au "Metanoia-Verse".

This will probably be mostly focused unto Hilbert, Dawn & Florian cause I've technically finished the (main) game for those characters in one way or another. But more will come with the more I consume.

[Note: I haven't played the ScarVio DLC yet. Meaning my thoughts might change once I play that]

So, I personlly don't have the strongest feelings on canon!Geeta from Pokémon ScarVio. I moreso like the character because of spite (mostly because of 2 particulary anti!Geeta fics) because... she isn't that awful

because she's barely a character.

Like; she doesn't do much nor does she have the strongest energy outside of mild-to-strongish arrogance. Which paired with her seeminly bad team (don't ask me how, I'm not super good at team-building, I actually struggled a little against her, I could not explain why her team is bad if you put a gun to my head) means that people are not the happiest about her.

The other might be because of Larry.

Larry mentions that she'll cut his pay if he keeps on chitchatting, which doesn't help the additude people have with Geeta (and that's excluding the fact that Tulip & Grusha also don't seem to be fond of her). But after you battle him at his gym for the tournament, he says that using flying types (which he says Geeta ordered him to do) actually seem to be helping him a little (also that somebody strictly told him to cut down on overtime, but I can understand that this might've been anyone else close to him).

Now; i have actually only finished the main story, with me getting some quotes stuff from Bulbapedia. But to me so far Geets just seems, kinda nosy? Which they might expand in the DLC, at least I hope so cause that could help her become more of a character.

So... I my very subjective opinion; Geeta is fine, not awful, not good, just fine.

So I've put myself in a position where I'm already getting a little sick of my current hyperfixation while still having this hyperfixation.

This could be because of one of two things:

1. This is just my body's reaction to it understanding that my hyperfixation is hella likely to change now

2. I have consumed too much of one thing in too little time

For context, I guess?: My current(?) hyperfixation is Pokémon and have to my understanding consumed 20-ish episodes of Chuggaconroy's B&W let's play in less than 2 weeks (while suppelmenting it sometimes with his let's plays of platinum & emerald). All the while playing some Sword here and there.

I might hyperfixate again on Hollow Knight; but IDK how much I'd want that? To my understanding the sequal Silksong is coming next year and I know I'm going to be salty if my headcanons are deconfirmed; so I'm trying to lighten my expectations (which fanfic will not do LMAO).

So yea; my brain is being messy like usual.

Now; it's probably hypocritical of me to ask this when I only resently started shipping Disciple Psiioniic.

But damn it; my eyes have been opened to the potential of this ship (thanks paradox Space) and I want more.

(though... considering my hyper-specific idea of what their relationship would be like, I would probably be heavly dissapointed what fics I would find)

(like; they are friends, they are roommates, they don't think twice about eachother's presence & they can't imagine life without the other. They are perfectly content with what they have & only enternity would enough. They have no clue what they are, they know exactly what they want, they only know eachother because of the person they've devoted themselves to & they're soulmates doomed by fate to meet.)

So I've been thinking about trans headcanons a bit now.

Specifically transmasc Aubrey, transfem Kel & recently transfem Sunny (all also enby in my mind).
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I am not trying to imply that transness is just suffering/angst. Or that any & all headcanons need to be deep & meaningful. But personally I have trouble connecting & getting invested in trans headcanons unless I can see a piece of myself in there or the character would make a complicated journey through gender to find themselves.

TL;DR trans headcanons cool & people should headcanon what they enjoy